:: the only way to forget you is to start hating you. but i dun want to. ::

happy birthday noel ng!!! had fun during recess today, malu-ing you.. haha.. thanks for cheering me up today.. thanks guys... i will nv forget this day.. so hurt so depressed so lost. sorry yumin for scaring you this morning by breaking down.. all of u looked so happy in the morning tt i was afraid my sadness will spoil all ur mood.. but u guys cheered me up today.. and it was terrible when i had to go home.. this time it seemed so lonely and cold.. there's no reason for me to rush home early from school everyday.. i cant concentrate on my studies, i'm stuffing myself with lots of food even when i'm not hungry and i feel like everything around me has become blurred.. joe said i looked gong now.. i just dunno what i shld think or do.. becos both my heart and mind seemed to stop.. maybe its for a while.. just need more time.. but for how long.. maybe i need 379 days..


I cried last night,
I prayed with all my might,
I prayed for rain,
To wash away my pain
Rain came today,
But the feelings still remained